| Wednesday, July 30, 2008 |
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30July2008 Wednesday Dear Blog, I am feeling sad todae .. I am soo sad and mood is super low Frm starting of attachment till now we faced alot of up and down .. Unstable project, unstable Grant .. this and that .. =x I cannot stand it .. Yes, alot people encourage us and give us suggestion .. But, what i want is Light- give me confirmation on what i.m doing .. What i get is: I do now and negative feedback in the future .. Lets talk about this Grant i.m doing now . Its only until the 3days before my attachment start did I noe abt our Project scope .. We faced barriers when obtaing information .. We noe nuts abt ST Synthesis and we are required to write a Grant ?! But the people there are nice bunch of people .. Seriously .. Alrite, now dat we overcome all the barriers and hand in the Grant They kip telling us tat they are reviewing and reviewing .. We wait (what can we possibly do ?) After more than one month did they tell me they need Formal training for the Methodology that I implement .. Wat the .. I research and research .. But its a custom-made Model .. How the hell do I find one ?? I was so worried .. We call the lec who taught us this Methodology and meet him up todae, He agree to help us apply to TP to design a training course But .. when we get back to our own Sup ( who is the course manager) he buntly sae .. there is No Resources .. He sae there are no lec free to teach and design one .. I was so sad .. I was feeling so down .. This past few week is so diffcult to pass .. I was so down .. I had to cope with the stress frm Sitmulation .. I everyday had to think of solution .. I AM SO TIRED OF IT .. i am not gg to sae "i wont give up" this sort of things Cox i noe i cannot take it .. I KIP THINKING OF SOLUTION TILL I.M SICK OF IT .. no one help .. HE sae that its us who recommend this Methodology it should be us who "clear" this thing up .. Wat the hell ?? Did i not try to tink ? Did i not try to find ? I feel like crying .. HE so cold .. Sitmulation .. Give me nth but PROBLEMS .. my brain + mind cannot take it .. can someone give me solid solution ?? I.m sick of thinking alone .. No point give me encouragement? Wan to help ? okay .. Solid solution plz .. cry*cry*cry* I sincerly pray that someone can give me guidance .. but that reality .. Solve the problem yourself .. I cant depend on others .. Hmmp .. and they though people attached out are lucky .. I felt that if your sup is a caring one den consider lucky .. I wish for the Best tml .. Labels: I felt like crying out loud .. |