| Monday, April 13, 2009 |
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14April2009 Sunny hi blog, feel so down yesterday .. apperently something happen to me .. work stuff .. i made mistake in filing cox tat time i was still new .. the person who found out dat mistake didnt tell me but told the person who ask me to do the job .. of cox she wasnt happy cox she aso kanna "shoot" and who gets the blame ? me. everything was being pushed to me. . maybe i overwork myself .. i kip crying yesterday and didnt feel like working today i wan to change job or maybe i should have rest enough first . after my poly life end, work life take over quickly break ? only that 7day trip in Japan . tired ? stress ? feeling lost .. actually. . i am only 20. why should i be working my damm life out ? i am tired i am exhausted god hell! who know ?! things just dont turn out well .. . my back hurts like crazy everyday u never read wrong EVERYDAY. . why am i like this ? i have enough money at the moment why i nid to toture myself ? other 20years old frenx are like lazing or enjoying their youth .. i am slogging .. for who ? for who ? i dunnoe .. . my mother dun understand me she tot i am just being lazy i am not i am working 7day per week 60 hours straight she told me to quit dallas if i am really tired problem is i hate my office work instead i hate waking up so early hate filing hate politics hate having to clean backside .. i just .. goodness!! i sound bitter, dont i ?? . but this is wat i felt now maybe later will be better maybe .. ya .. maybe it will be better .. did i overwork ? yes. what should i do ? rest. how do i get to rest ? --- now u get it ?? . . I made a silly wish if someone who read my blog and ask me out before 12pm i will immediatly say "yes" and fake MC .. . but datx .. stupid .. who read blog at 9.50am in the morning ?? Labels: i feel sad now |