| Saturday, November 14, 2009 |
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15 Nov 2009 Nite Time .. I had many things on my mind now .. feel like there is alot gg thru my mind .. didnt noe wat to start .. feel like listening to many nice songs .. I open youtube .. but no song came in2 my mind .. want to surf net .. but didnt noe which webbie to turn to .. then i went to facebook .. but didnt noe where to kaypo-ed .. or check out hu or hu new stuff .. .. i turned to blog instead . it is always blog dat cure my boredment .. or maybe this is the only place my tots can kip pouring without anyone disturbing it .. .. i had mac for breakfast todae at chinatown - alone. feel like eating .. so just go and i feel good about it .. didnt manage to get to eat breakfast so eat filo-o-fish instead .. .. i feel happy dat i manage to eat smt i feel good :) keep me happy .. although it exceed my calories quota .. watever. .. i tink i am getting fat. the weighting machine didnt sae so. but i feel so. i hate it. why are clothes dat i love, are designed to be slim-fit and show ur damm figure ? i hate thoes designers >.< gv me a nice figure and model height den i will love u :) .. i am babbling now .. more totx coming .. LONG post ahead .. so just scroll down if u wan to skip it. watever. .. i feel sad for myself. really .. i saw my feet just now and i want to cry and pity myself .. i saw green vien .. cox i stand too long .. so got green vien. they are ugly .. hope they disappear .. .. yesterday i went to Arup D&D .. Initally in the morning i feel good on wat i wear .. people in my office look and me and i noe dat I am pretty .. they even ask if i am gg out dat day .. hahax .. i feel so so happy cox my dress is thoes fit tight .. and dat day my tummy is compact .. wahahah .. sad new is .. huixian who come and look for me to lunch sae i wear WRONGLY !! den when i go to the D&D .. i knew huixian is rite .. everyone wear dress .. i feel OUT i dun like it there .. it is an itlian resturant at club street .. high class .. with bar there and live band .. i can adapt .. partially cox i don really noe people there i was angry with my sister - wenhui .. she pratically throw me there alone and even ask me help her tale her hp and camera while she herself go socialize everywhere .. luckie got deyuan and gladyn .. i feel more lonely when they 2 tok .. .. anyway .. i cfm i am not a loud gal and not suitable to go function cox i practically feel uncomforatble at these high class place. the ang-mohs are like drinking and laughing .. i feel WERID. maybe i dress wrongly ba .. so no mood and they are all engineer and high-pay worker .. i feel even smaller .. say i self-consious ba .. watever. .. dallas and JST brought a different me . mon-fri , i am very serious and slient. I dont tok nonsense and dont joke. sat-sun , i am a crazy gal .. laughing so loudly .. talking so many many nonsense .. .. nobody know why i wan to continue dallas .. this is the reason .. i wan to find myslelf there .. i hate jiahui's mon-fri .. i find myself 20yrs old in dallas .. happy and laughing and ya .. talkative.. i tok more on weekends compare to weekdays .. laugh more .. happy more .. only dat i hate some people in dallas .. but it is just dat few people i really love and care abt .. i hope they will not leave me .. i will be sad .. cox i noe tat i am being liked there .. :) .. my dear huixian come back .. 1st nite, she had dinner wif my family .. den dinner wif xq the nxt day ... finally 3 people tgt .. den lunch wif her the nxt day .. she come lunch wif me at my office there .. muckx~! .. work .. i did few mistake .. i really hate to gossip .. PLEASE .. dont gossip .. i rather be normal frenx wif them .. just dont gossip .. i rather tok and non-sense .. i hate to tok bad abt people .. call me navie ... call me wat i don mind .. just dont gossip abt people in frnt of me and expect me to participate .. but the enviroment there is good lah .. people , environment good .. just dat i find myslef old there .. i am the youngest gal u noe .. sweet 20 .... bless me ok ..:) i love u .. |